Quest for something!!

Wrote this couple of months ago, but was just not sure how to close it .. still Iam not..but here it goes.

28 years... this is what it took for an uncle of mine to establish, operate and sell a company. It is then that I realized how the total valuation process undermines the efforts and the journey involved in establishing the entity.

After the company was sold, I sat with him and he started pouring out his emotions. It’s been quite a tumultuous journey for him to let go his company into the hands of other entity. He certainly appeared to be shaken, no doubt, but one thing for sure was evident. His desire to perform!

Only a few people stuck with him throughout the journey, and as usual it was not the relatives and as predicted they were the friends and well wishers. In the times of depression, while some did pull him up, it was he who dedicated most of his life with a rigor matched only by his vision.

During the journey, he fell down, lost many a battles, battered relationships, missed family life and many more. Not sure, if his deeds can be considered as a sacrifice, but yet, he was the first among the small rung of entrepreneurs who indeed took the bull of life by its horns. Now he is tired, needs rest, cannot sit for a long time and needs constant monitoring.

In-spite of all this, there is something in him, some zeal and some energy that keeps him running around looking for something. He is constantly reading, nowadays a lot more on religious practices and religion, becoming more and more discerned at the mis-deeds of the other stakeholders. While he seemingly loves getting lost in the daily activities, he is on a look out for every opportunity to come out of it and do something that may impact the impoverished. May be it’s the reading that is making him think on those lines.

In the mad rush, there is something in him holding back and at the same time some other forces pushing him to the limit. A queer situation! Not sure, because he has been like that through-out the life.

What is the one thing that would satisfy him?? While I haven’t asked him, guess it would be the satisfaction he derives out of his daughter and Son’s innocence. He wouldn’t publicly acknowledge, but I can only imagine the pride he derives out of his children.

In-spite of all this, I’d still want to understand what is driving him. What makes him, the way he is. While age certainly has caught up with him, he is defying every bit of it to prove something. Wonder, if even he realizes it!!

End of this, I can just hope to accomplish his achievements. Energy Levels!! Not sure :)

PS: Dedicated to my uncle Mr. Bhagavathi Hari Babu