What Am I

PS: This was drafted a long time ago, but never published it. The only inevitable thing in one's life. My Mother-in-law just expired. Suddenly, there is no one to blame. Honestly!! Most of us consider death as a punishment, whereas it is a liberation from suffering for that person. She died due to kidney issues but once the issue was diagnosed she didn't last long and now to think of it she relatively died peacefully, as she didn't have to bear the suffering that most go through with kidney transplantation and various other things.. It is the near and dears' loss, because you have no one to look upto, no one to blame to. It is my attachment (positive/negative) that is lost.  I was too concerned, how my wife and others would deal with it, especially my father in law.. I am surprised how things shaped out. Suddenly, I felt so close to death and yet felt too indifferent as if I will never be affected.. It is inevitable, yet Iam dying to address my immediate n

If you think that you are what you think you are then you are totally screwed. My exposure to certain things, is really messing with me about my identity in the digital world. As they say, the identity in a digital world is your mail ID, your bogs, your web foot print, my bank balance (which is also a digital entry) and all the stuff associated. But ,through these soc alled social media and various other fraternity, I am no longer the beholder of my identity. I am wat I am perceived through these media. My projection of the same in these apps, and the analysis done by various technologies about me and my presence in these locations determines who am I and what am I capable of.  This left me perturbed because suddenly my space is no longer my own, and its a mirage created that my identity is well being protected. Should it matter, I don't know. I am a novice, but I am as disturbed as Edward snowden was with the amount of awareness he had about it. I do not control myself in

He wasn't certainly his vintage best. He used to look much more composed, much smarter, fitter .. (So, was I at that time :) )...  All hope was lost until 2 weeks ago. Since 2012, it felt as if the god has decided to come down to earth and stay and live on earth. Everyone could beat him on the court, which he ruled for so many years .. yet, he felt coming back as if there was something that he owed to the courts and at the end the courts would seek their vengeance by not letting him conquer them again. Every court and every year continued to be the same. From one mortal to another, everyone was able to deprive the god of his jewels, which he was trying so desperately. It took his two daughters' mischief to make him break a tissue in his bone and go on 6 month rest. Suddenly, the courts came alive as every one of these mortals have started conquering the crowns, without the original king in foray any more. There was another king of clay, who was also trying to come to hi